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gotta love it.

non-permanence

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

It's just amazing how little things make your day. Or when you forget about stuff that's really important, too busy wallowing in laziness and forced stress. Reading this blog, I realized it's about time I let go of the grammatical contstraints, and just go back to freewriting. Just stop analyzing and let thoughts flow in.

I guess I'm always afraid to do that and see what honesty can bring in paper, or in this case, blog. These days, I'm a mix of emotions. Parang it's your earth day everyday. I haven't always been a moody person, so this is really something new for me. I'm always content sitting in my happy cloud, laughing with my friends. But summer breaks in and it seems you barely have time for that anymore, it's school, internship and school. Which for me, after what seemed like weeks of doing nothing, seem like walk-barefoot-in-shredded-glass-torture. Bad trip. Gusto ko matulog. But if matulog ako, I feel like I'm wasting time. That's been me most of days. No wonder my body clock's shot.

I was working on this pitch for presentation yesterday. It's a spring break campaign for Pirates of the Caribbean II... the pitch was for Disney, and I was assigned to make a presentation and give ideas. I wasn't really excited to tell you the truth, I know as an intern, they're gonna take my ideas and maybe some of them will actually be implemented. Who knows? I'm just an intern working for creatives. I was just relieved to have something to work on that I won't fall asleep on.

But then I had a chat with one of my friends. She was the one who was really excited about it. Just the thought that the pitch was for Disney got her reeling. Then I realized that THAT should've been my reaction. That's when I realized I really miss working. I thought, well, so what if I'm just an intern? There's nothing wrong with giving them quality work. My ideas were brimming and as I started on this huge presentation, flowered with graphics and pitch innuendos. I thought, I don't really care if some ideas get shot, I still get to be a part of something big.

Plus, I shouldn't be wallowing in front of the computer when a marketing campaign is in the works. I should know better. That's one of the reasons I came to grad school.

AMAZING how you take stuff for granted. Even more amazing that it's me. Who's basically like a child marvelling at every lil thing. Laziness can really get you blinded on certain things. And it attacks as quietly as it can.

Hmmm... I should stop and do research for my Celtic paper. Worthwhile stuff. No matter how tiresome moments can get, ya always gotta count on doing something that matters. Kinda builds the ego. Reassuring. Suddenly everything makes sense again.

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